Where does disappointment show up in our charts?
I’m not referring to, Oh, I was really disappointed in that chocolate cake. It looked so moist and yummy, but it was dry as a bone.
I’m referring, instead, to the kind of disappointment that comes from damaged relationships or a life that didn’t turn out quite “right” in that fairytale way we’ve heard so much about. Your wife got old and fat, your husband cheated, your kid’s in jail, you lost the family farm, you never made it to Paris. That kind of disappointment.
Saturn is the likely suspect because he restricts us, binds us. But deep disappointment is more than just feeling bound in that oh-so-special-way Saturn has of keeping things from us.
Deep disappointment is a long death.
We lose hope.
We shut down.
We isolate our feelings.
We form a callous around our soul.
All very gloomy stuff, but there it is. We can ignore it all we want, but it won’t go away.
At least Saturn teaches us a lesson. Do we learn from our disappointments? Maybe. What does Neptune teach us? Feelings of disappointment can linger for decades, tinting our psyche. Perhaps we disengage from the source of disappointment or, worse, become resentful. We lose trust. There’s no room for love when disappointment and resentment take up so much space.
If you track the Moon, this square will reappear on September 30th, but with the Moon in Scorpio instead of Taurus. The transit may be fleeting, but the feelings…not so much.
Does Neptune in your chart give a clue to your disappointments?
Is transiting Neptune triggering something in your chart?